I have to start by saying that I am so happy now and can’t believe how blessed I am to have the friends and family I have that have helped get me to where I am now. That being said, I can’t help but have my days where I struggle so much with where I am now and my past. I miss my ex so badly sometimes and just want to cry. I even lost some great friends all because they do not understand why I a…m who I am. I can’t help but wonder how things would be and where I would be if I was not transgendered. It just hurts so much sometimes and even though I have all the people in my life I do, I feel so alone and scared. There is no changing who I am or my past and I truly believe that I wouldn’t. I just wanted to share that sometimes it is really difficult and even in those struggles I try to focus on now and the future and to be thankful for what I have now and for what I lost.